part of me left already

there is a part of me that went to indonesia ahead of the rest of me. while i'm still in portugal, i feel that little particles of me are crossing the oceans, moving east, finding their way around south east asia. i take long to answer questions in lisbon because i'm looking at an island i can't yet see. i take longer to feel things here because those things need to travel east east east and try to bump into the pieces of me scattered between here and sumatra. while i swim in lisbon i sense some parts of me swim in a far away ocean. when i smile now i don't know if it's from things from here or from in between or from the land of the gorgeous volcanoes. the sun touches me here but also along the way. i'm traveling already, moving places, and i'm not quite all here x